Something Somewhere ...

Thus far, due to some unavoidable circumstances, I was able to miss out on going to certain places. And was able to avoid bumping into a certain person. But I know I couldn't avoid this person forever.

The last time I saw this person face to face, I experienced something close to rapid heart palpitations and shaky hands. My mind was totally blanked out. Everything else dimmed.

I thought he had a sad look upon his face. And that he gave me a sad, sad smile.

I wanted to reach out and hold his dear head and tell him that I miss him.

Instead, I mustered up a smile and said a soft and friendly hi. As I walked past him, I felt as if I was leaving my heart behind.

My head said, "Walk on".

My heart said, "Stay".

I followed my head. Which was a good thing because in retrospect, he could have looked sad for an amalgamated number of reasons. Or he may not have been sad at all.

When our paths crossed again months later, I was in a different place. Settled, secure with who I have become and most significantly, healed.

This time, it was different. This time we waved at each other. My smile didn't feel forced.

Who knows, maybe one day when we feel comfortable enough with each other, we can be friends again. Maybe.